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The um smart thing to do would be to leave. But um I think it’s too late for that now. Besides… um I told Ion that I would stay with him. Even if I… even if I die.

I really do like him…

It’s the right thing…

I should call my sisters one last time…
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This is um the first birthday we haven't spent together.


I'm glad she wasn't here though, I wouldn't want her to get hurt. But I really do miss her.

I um... don't know what to do.
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Um I don't know if you're busy but um I attempted to make a cake and well if you would like to come over or something?

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I um hadn't realized it had almost been a month since the last time I posted. I guess I've been too worried.

Miriam hasn't told me if she is coming or not, I guess I should hope that she isn't, but um not in a rude way. But um I'd rather not have her here where she could get hurt. Not that um I'm in a better spot...

But I can't leave, as long as he's here I can't.
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Miriam... she um wants to come here. To stay with me. But how... am I supposed to tell her she can't? I can't tell her that a guy just annonounce he was just going to attack something soon because... she's just going to be more worried. But um if I tell her not to come without a reason then um she'll be worried that way as well. And um either way she's going to end up coming.

I... don't know.
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It um looks like I'm not the only one who keep forgetting about this... um yes.


Miriam called me again. I've... almost been here for two months. And um our birthday is almost... a month away. She wanted to know um what I wanted for my birthday. Um not that I had an answer anyway...

It um doesn't help to call from Seattle when it's three in the morning. And they wondered why I was grumpy.

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Although um it was... nice to hear from them.
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I've been practicing with cooking skills. And um while I'm still not as good as Miriam I um...

Oh um... wow. I got it to work!

I um tried to make bread in the microwave again. And it... actually came out almost decent. Um... I wonder if I could do it again and have it work.

[Filter: Ion]
Do you um want to come over and watch me try and um end up with me not getting it to work so we could eat something else?
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I...um hadn't realized it had been so long since I said anything on this. Um... not that I still have anything to say really.

Um... I don't know...

[Filter: Melissa]
You're um doing okay and everything... right?
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I'm sorry Miriam. I won't leave. I can't. No matter... how bad it gets.


I'm here for him.
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Well um... I can always ask my parents for money. Um it's not like I eat much anyway...


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It's um alright. I was living through this in Hong Kong... so um why am I so scared now?



I... I miss Miriam. And Cheyenne. It's different... um not having them here. They would always be there to comfort me. Well um not so much Cheyenne, but um she was still there for me.

I'm... trying my best. I really am. Considering um all I want to do is be there for him. But um it's hard when he doesn't talk to me all the time.


I um not even sure what else to do. Maybe just being... here, um in Jerusalem is enough? But I don't know...
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Well um my family is now out of Hong Kong and back in Seattle. I hope um everything is going to be fine for them. Cheyenne would say I worry to much. But um I think it's okay.
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Um... I just noticed I have no food. And um very little money. I think um... I should look for a job.

Again...

[Filter: Ion]
Um… I’m in Jerusalem now.
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They um said their good byes. They’ll be leaving Hong Kong next week and um going back to Seattle.


I hope they’ll be okay.
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Well um everything is ready. I have my ticket and my stuff together. Even though um I’m only bringing one bag. But um that’s okay, it’s not like I need much.

And um my parents have almost finished packing everything up in their house. Then my sisters are almost done with everything in our apartment. It’s um weird, we were so happy about our own place and it didn’t even last very long.
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And um Mitzi really needs to stop jumping into the boxes, one of these times we aren’t going to notice her in there and she’s going to get packed into the box.

That um wouldn’t be good.

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So um my parents weren't really for the idea, but um Cheyenne and Miriam backed me up. They um even said they would help get me there.

It's what I want. Now more then ever and um I'm going to do it.
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Um hi. I was um...

Well um I just wanted to let you know that I'm going to be coming to Jerusalem fairly soon. And um... well I plan on staying there for you. And I won't be going back to Hong Kong.


Um... if it's alright with you.
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I've um made my decision. I'm not being of help to anyone here... and um at least I can be there for him.


Mom and dad are coming to our apartment soon to help us pack... um I can... tell everyone then.
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I um think I've given up on the job search.

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He said he wouldn't mind.


And well um if I could figure out a possiblity of staying there... I'm sure something will work out.
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Um... still nothing for a job. I um never realized it would be this difficult. But um at least it gives me plenty of time to do other things around the apartment, um the good news is the place has yet to become overly messy.

[Filter: Ion]
Hi. Um... I was wondering how you were and everything.


And um I had a question. If there was a um... possibility for me to come and visit you again, would you um... mind?
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So far... um so good. Although um since Miriam and Cheyenne both have jobs they um don't have to be with each other all the time. Which um gives them enough time apart that they um don't hate each other.


That's um... always a good thing.

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I um haven't seen Xi Wén around recently. I um really hope she's okay.
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Well um everything is moved in and all ready. It’s um weird being without our parents around. Miriam is going to make a big dinner for our first real meal here.

And um… I’m being grumbled at to go to bed.

That um one thing I really do miss about being in Seattle, the fireworks. Even if... um I didn't like the noise.

We're um finally almost ready to move in to the apartment. It is considered ours now. Um it's just a matter of moving our things in. We um... should be in by the end of next week. It's... interesting really.

The um job search isn't going very... good. I'm still looking for that. But um something is going to um show up at some point.